I never thought I would make music. I’ve loved it my whole life, to the safe and generic pop songs on the radio to the obscure Emo/Indie Rock my mom and aunt put me onto as a kid. I love music but I never thought I would be good at making it. My parents got me a guitar at the end of 2021 and I started learn it cause why not, using guitar learning apps but I thought it wouldn’t get far until I got a guitar teacher, without him I wouldn’t have made this, I wouldn’t have discovered my passion for music making. When I fully committed to learning the guitar I fell into a rabbit hole of a loud and noisy genre of music, one that I completely fell in love with. My guitar teacher wasn’t the only one to inspire me to create, there was an artist whose music has profoundly impacted my life, Parannoul.

I discovered To See The Next Part Of The Dream during a very mentally unstable time of my life, my depression was at an all time high. I had a very unhealthy attachment to a crush at the time over the internet (ik it’s really stupid) and I was willing to do anything to make it happen. It felt like if I didn’t succeed on this then my life had no purpose. I heard the first minute of Beautiful World and was immediately hooked, found out the album was in Korean but I felt every word he was saying, and the song White Ceiling effected me in a way I can’t describe on first listen, I broke down listening as it felt like everything I’ve experienced my whole life, all the good and bad was put into one 10 minute opus. Heard the entire album after that and it has stuck with me to this day, my favorite album of all time. I found out later on that it wasn’t a band but was one guy in his bedroom with a computer, and then i stumbled across a whole scene of Shoegaze/Emo artists making music in their bedroom. with all the skills i learned in guitar I decided why don't i give this music thing a shot.

At first i was afraid of doing it cause sometimes I feel like a poser, someone making this type of music cause its easy. But i wanted to prove to myself that it doesn't matter where you come from or what you've experienced. I'm doing this for me, because I want to get out my comfort zone. I found the software BandLab early this year and I devoted my time to it. The first song I ever created was Flowers (a very bad first version of it) I was proud of it at the time and posted it, then I created Pink Moonlight, the EP slack pack, Navarro, and now this. During the making slack pack this little indie film called Guardians Of The Galaxy Volume 3 was about to come out, I was very excited for this film, so excited that I released my EP on the same day as that album release. I’ve never had a more beautiful, life affirming movie experience. I saw myself a lot in Rocket (I didn’t go through insane childhood trauma btw) but his behavior throughout the trilogy I related to a lot. I pushed people I love away with my toxic behavior but my friends and loved ones never gave up on me , I still struggle today but I wanna be better.

Now here is what 10 months of non stop producing has lead to.

This project is an outlet for what I’ve experienced these past few years, some of it is fictional, some of it is real. With my vocal style I wanted to emulate the Emo vocal styles of the 90s and 2000s (I apologize if it comes off as obnoxious) I didn’t wanna copy Parannouls sound, obviously it’s a huge influence on my sound but so are other bands and artists I love all ranging from Shoegaze to 90s Emo / alt rock. I also didn’t want this album to be doom and gloom either, I wanted to create some catchy pop songs to dance to as well, to me this project is a pop album. I don’t seek to be the best in the genre but I wanna play a part, doesn’t matter how little it is. I hope you enjoy it and I wanna thank my friends and family who have supported me and continue to stick with me, and all the people I lost due to my actions.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Rambling over.